Lie To Me

so tired of crying
so tired of the pain inside my chest
so tired of this want, this need, all this love for you
so many times i've prayed to got to please kill me
i've lain naked and covered in blood crying on the floor
more times than i could ever count
i've lain in bed night after night
wondering what all i did wrong
every time i look in the mirror i can't help but think that i'll never be good enough, pretty enough, just enough
it all seemed too good to be true in the beginning
that's why i was always so scared
you would roll your eyes at me, tel me all these things
but i'm the one who ended up being right
i was so afraid of losing you right from the start
but the truth is i never had you to begin with
you've always been hers, and you always will be
i'm so tired of fighting for something that never was
(though you say you did,
you never loved me the way i love you, because if you did it wouldn't have just gone away)
you tell me not to give up hope
yet there's nothing to hope for
i'm so tired of giving more than i get back
every time you ask me for a kiss it rips my heart out because you don't feel the way i do
when i kiss you
and you never will
and i'm pretty sure i'm no the one you want to be kissing
inside you're wishing it was her
i have no energy left to fight
fight for what??
there's nothing to fight for
nothing to hope for
you're her's plain and simple
we never had what i thought we did
what i risked everything for
and in that; everyone else was right
you seem to be content in someone else simply loving you
maybe i'm selfish
bu i don't care about your love
unless it's equal to my own
i could never be happy with less
so please keep your kisses
and i love you's to yourself
because all they do is lie to me